Tests

Three more bloody weeks then I am free

Although it will be just a 2 weeks holiday but I am contented.


Looking at the calendar is killing me. 4 tests and 1 OSPE in 3 weeks. Just in case you don't know what is OSPE, check out my April2010 archive titled "Post-exam".

I seriously think that my brain is deteriorating. Or it is because of the 2 months semester break which diverge my brain cells normal route of impulse transmission.

In short, I feel stupid. I can't remember the notes. I don't know how to do the lab report.

So now it occurs to me that I am good at NOTHING.

Is there any drugs which can increase one's confidence?
I desperately need a heavy dose now.

Pause . Play

I am sorry for the negligence of my blog.

Blame the stupid Celcom broadband which its speed is at the same pace of me doing my assignment--BLOODY SLOW!!! I failed uploading any pics so I just PAUSE blogging during my holiday.

And now I'm back to my uni, even the free wireless offered is at a more satisfying speed than the broadband I've paid for.

Now I even have to go to the Celcom Service Center to terminate my account...Grr

Just finished the first week of my third year first semester. THIRD year! I can still remember my orientation week vividly and now I am an old senior. Time flies~ T.T

Spent my one and a half month holiday in KL working + being a worm at home. I didn't work as promoter selling milk as hoped by Jia Xin and Lie Yin. Ended up working in a market research company in Mid Valley.

Maybe I am not good at begging and bugging people, so the job is quite tough for me. The pay is actually quite good compared to other office job. However I can only receive my salary in August. I am so desperate to dye my hair, just to wait after I receive my salary and Raya holiday~

Talking about Raya holiday, I am still in a dilemma. I am now thinking of whether to drive back or to go back by bus. Too bad my other KL friends had booked their flight tickets or I can ask them to accompany me. Should I take the risk of driving back alone or should I endure 2 weeks without car? I just checked the flight ticket. RM144 for 2 ways. If by bus then would be around RM90. Hmm...but bus takes around 8 hours from KB to KL.

Drive or Fly?

Any sponsors for my flight tickets? =P

Yay^^

I now hereby officially declare that

MY EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can watch movie play games sleep and eat without guilt. ^^

Forget about gaining weight. I don't care as long as I am happy. =P

then Tan Hwa Li will regret when she really gain some weight

Yay~ I feel so light so relieved and now the only thing bothering me is how I keep my stuff and move out from my room.

OMG

SOOO messy...

Deal with it later, now watch movie first XD

My stress level is always due to procrastination.

One more paper and I am free~

This is the entry that I promised =)

Still have one more paper to go, on 3rd of May.

Then I spent my whole day watching tv show after the forensic science paper.

Have been tensed up for weeks, and I reject to study today!

I will SURE regret saying this the minute before my next paper

Every exam I regret myself being sluggish and lazy for the semester and promise to be more hardworking next time.

Yet I didn't study hard this time.


Kelantan weather is so weird.

One morning it can be so windy and you feel like you are in Genting.

Then the next moment it is hot like hell.

So library is the best refuge.

Went there almost everyday except for weekend because I want to sleep more the library closes early during weekend.

The exam schedule is too packed.

And yet I am so sluggish, can even talk on the phone in the library.

No wonder this is the exam which I have the least confident so far.

Today my roommate went back home.

Feel so empty to see her leaving.

Used to have her as a companion for 1 year in this double room.

I admit, she is cool when she doesn't talk. Sometimes, I am even afraid of talking to her.

But when we start chatting then we will be babbling all the way long.

She is a good listener, and extremely good in keeping secret.

And I really need to thank her for buying my dinner for n times since last month. ^^

OMG...I miss her.............

I will have to stay in my room alone until........7th May

Initially I can go back on the 3rd, after my exam.

But I need to join BTN, so I can only reach KL on 11th? 12th? not so sure...

Feel so lonely now T.T

We tend to take a lot of things for granted, until we suddenly lose it.

Starting final tomorrow!!!

Sorry for not blogging for so long. Please forgive me...T.T

Look at my exam schedule

18/4 ~ Advanced Microbiology

20/4 ~ Advanced Immunology

21/4 ~ Basic Pharmacology

25/4 ~ Biostatistic

27/4 ~ Basic Pathology

29/4 ~ Forensic Science

3/5 ~ Human Genetic

The earliest I will be writing should be....29/4 night? Provided that I didn't fall asleep..=P

Something unhappy just happened. But since I don't want this blog to be emo, I rather don't talk about this.

It is not a very big deal anyway. Just, it makes me realize something, despite it being a sad truth.

Sometimes, even we tried to hide ourselves from the truth, like an ostrich hiding its head into the ground, some people will still pull out our head and expose us to the truth.

I don't mind facing the reality, just that I don't like the way I was being forced to do so.

Post-exam

Wonder where I have been these few days?

I was lazy to blog I was studying for my advanced microbiology test.

It's not not like those normal objective or essay questions. The test is named OSPE

OSPE = obssessive stressed paralysing examination On Spot Practical Examination

OSPE is a test based mostly on what we have learnt in the laboratory session. There are about 12 stations, and 5 minutes is given for each station.

In the 5 minutes, we need to answer the questions by identifying the equipments, the plates, the organisms, the medium, the chemical changes or comparing the microscopy findings, or even performing a short experiment.

Yea, we need to do the practical + answer the question sheets in 5 minutes.

Once 5 minutes end, some horrifying bell will be rang, then we need to move to the next station.

It is not advisable to use more than 5 minutes in any of your station as it will not only affect your performances in the subsequent stations, it will delay your friend's time in the particular station.

Yes, stick to the 5 minutes, regardless you have completed the answers or not.

Also, there is no turning back!

If you suddenly figure out the answer in previous station, you can do nothing but regret.

Spent my night reading these in my computers. No wonder my eyes are tired.

Yes, based on the medium, you need to identify what is the organism inside.

Same agar, different organisms, different reactions @.@

Colourful plates do not seem to be interesting anymore when it appears in my test.

Finally it ends. This OSPE occupy 30% of the total marks in our final.

30%, strike it or toss it.

I still have another OSPE coming next week, it is immunology OSPE.

Wish me luck ^^

Taking exam is like gambling, you need some luck to get it through

小说篇~

今天的网志应该会比较长。。。

之前就有提到说我迷上了小说。。。
说起着迷，也不是最近才开始的事。一直以来我都很喜欢一位作家的作品。
她的文笔简单，但不拐弯抹角，清楚明了的表达出自己的想法。。
她的文章，容易引起共鸣，阅读时不禁会点头赞成，甚至觉得自己身历其境。
她的小说，浪漫得来，不浮夸。

她就是张小娴

第一次阅读她的作品，是六年级的时候，阅读了她的一本散文集 《幸福鱼面颊》。
但那时少不更事，读了之后，除了知道吃鱼脸可以养颜之外，基本上没多大的共鸣。

直到form3到书局时，就顺手买了她的一本小说。我忘了书名，只知道那时开始，就一直追看她的作品。后来该看的都看了，该买的都买了，就没再追下去了。

最近在面子书大家都好流行分享文章。其中又让我读到张小娴的名句，所以就上网搜寻，重读她的作品。

同一篇文章，在不同的时间阅读，会有不同的心境。

这几天一口气就读了好几篇的小说。

我钟情于她的作品，因为她的故事，不像一般爱情小说那么虚幻。
故事里的主角，不一定是富豪，不一定是美女，可能是一个普通的店员，或是一个秘书。
她描绘的，不是童话故事，而是我们周遭都在发生的事。
故事的结局，也不一定是完美的，可能很残酷，可能很幸福，也可能是无言的，就跟现实生活一样。
期待幸福完美结局的读者，可能就不会太喜欢她的小说。
或许，她的小说比较适合我这种，不喜欢看偶像剧的人阅读吧^^

觉得还蛮特别的一本，就是 《那年的梦想》。

它是由十二篇的短篇故事组成。这些短篇故事，可以互相串连成一篇长篇小说。
里面的角色很多。但当你细细的研究，你会发觉角色和角色之间，是有关联的。他们可能住在同一座公寓，可能是初恋情人。
里面没有主角和配角，就像现实生活般，每个人都是自己故事中的主角。

在这里和大家分享一些张小娴的经典语录~

爱上了你，我才领悟思念的滋味，分离的愁苦和嫉妒的煎熬，还有那无休止的占有欲。为什么你的一举一动都让我心潮起伏？为什么我总害怕时光飞逝而无法与你终生厮守？

一对男女之所以能够成为佳偶，并不是因为他们完全一样，而是他们能够接受彼此的差异。

为什么要那么痛苦的忘记一个人，时间自然会使你忘记。如果时间不可以让你忘记不应该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？

爱情也是一种发明，需要不断改良。只是，这种发明跟其他发明不一样，它没有专利权，随时会给人抢走。

恋爱是一个追求不自由的过程，当你埋怨太不自由了的时候，就是你不爱他的时候。

我们放下尊严，放下个性，放下固执，都只是因为放不下一个人。

清醒一点吧，世上没有未完的事，只有未死的心。

爱情，原来是含笑饮毒酒。



最后一句，是我自己的：

每个人都要为自己而活，不要若干年后回忆往事，才惊觉自己一直是别人故事里的配角。

I'm a worm

I have been lagging for few days, since my last continuous assessment for basic pathology.

Didn't really concentrate in studying microbiology, which its OSPE (on spot practical examination) is just around the corner.

Spent hell lot of time online, reading novels. I am addicted. And it's absolutely not a good thing.

Will talk about the novel addiction on my next entry, since it is more suitable to be discussed in chinese (the novels are in chinese) and this is an english entry.

Second addiction

M&M

I seriously believe that candies are not just meant for children. Like me, I crave for chocolates.

These colourfull button-shaped candies don't seem to be created to attract adults like me. However, I like it. Maybe because it's mini, or because of its convenient packaging? At least I make it super convenient.

Bought this M&M minis in 7-11. And this ignites the addiction.

Then few days later, I bought 2 packs of this. Large packs.

Yeah, this is the refill pack. =P

I can easily carry it around in my bag, or even bring it to the library. (this is forbidden, of course) The point is, I can have something to chew on wherever I am. Also, by eating this, I can prevent myself from eating a whole bar of chocolate in one go.

I just found out that M&M used to have their coating in violet in 1940s. They should have it now. My friend ask why I prefer the milk-chocolate flavour to peanut or the cereal-filled one. I can't find a reason.

Love, always don't come with a reason.

Welcome^^

Welcome to the opening of my new blog. Or I should say this is my third blog?

My first blog was a secret one. Not many know about it and those who read it are friends I met in the particular website. But then I found it quite restricted in the design and function wise. Therefore I create a new blog in blogspot.

The second blog layout is quite an emo-type one. (yes, the picture above-that's it!) But I really fell for the template. Despite it being not really compatible with the current template in blogspot, I refuse to change it. That is why people are not allowed to leave comment after each and every post.

Then due to some proxy settings, I couldn't see what my friends wrote on my chatterbox sometimes. Blame myself, I lost the motivation in blogging. Maybe it is because lack of time. Maybe it is because I was lazy. Maybe it is because I was too concentrating in some people......Days after days and months after months, I start abandoning my blog. The only time I post entry, was when I am sad or emo. Maybe its layout is destined to have emo entries.

Also, recently I found out that it had been HACKED!!!

Weird things appeared in my account and even I have changed the password, I still feel that my space is being intruded.

I once thought of deleting the old one, but it feels like killing my own son.

That is why I am creating this new blog. The layout is totally different from the old one, at least not an emo one. Hopefully it is destined to have happy entries^^

I didn't expect to have my first entry to be this long, thought just a few sentences then lots of pictures. Sorry for the boredom guys~

Things always come as opposite to our expectations.